Rules and reflections

Minimalism | Simple living

• Use a pen (Lamy Safari charcoal black),  and a pencil (Uniball Kurutoga). Standby multicolor pen 
• Buy Kindle Whitelight only when existing Kindle is either gifted or unresponsive (Dec 2014)
• New phone when existing phone goes dead
• No requirement for tab
• No more book to be bought unless urgent and essential

Principle based living

•  Kshamaarjav Dayatosh Satyam

Fitness

• Morning walk and pranayam to be started (Dec, 2014)
• Food habits: Fruits in breakfast

Virtuous cycle

• Meditation, morning walk & design

Design | Career

• Photoshop/Illustrator: Take a task and do it 
• Blender: Take a tutorial and finish it
• Alternate career planning
• Read about design
• Prepare a portfolio
  

Self-Awareness

• Getting up early
• Meditation and reading
• Observe mind and its nature and never submit

Financial planning

• Maintain records. Update family records

Procrastination

• Observation of events

NOW

• Practice, observe

Engagement at workplace

•  How do I see myself contributing? 
• How will I do it?

Events:

13/12 : Burst out on a fellow employee. Ego-induced reaction, uncontrolled and shameful. Ego getting strength from lifestyle. Even later at night, feeling of anger towards my wife -- impatience. 

A curse - in love

Long ago was a man who killed love, and now exists as a wanderer labelled as "in love". Is it a search or an illusion is not a question here as the pain is real and so is the fear. The question asked is whether I am supposed to be in love. The various elements of relationship fail me even though I wish to ace in love. It's a misery, I pity myself. 

pain..

I want to talk to you. I feel the wave in me taking me to different emotional oceans. I miss you. I suffer, but I am scared.Love.

All in me

Scene:From  'Pursuit of Happyness'

Interviewer: "It wasn't as easy as it seems"
Will Smith: " Not at all, Sir"

Dedication/Commitment has the key to unlock miracles. It's possible. 

A walk in the dark...

Oh dear life O you. A million confusions of sense and futility - I feel tired, broken perhaps.

O dear time, should I tread in such darkness, or just lie here and wait for the light?

O dear life O you.

Chartsheet - 'social failure'

Bad health. Randomness. Out of life. Failure in mating. Discontinuity
in social affairs. Gloomy nights & frustrated breaths. Total failure of balance. Death.

The fear of the blood-ladies has its stories around these simple predictions or deductions. They can't be blamed for such a reaction. A stubborn ass has nothing else to initiate.

I need time. I feel the need to be free - the way I walk, and the way I'll die. I'll grow, and I may regret. But, in the end, it's the Light which I must seek. A breath under a cave, otherwise, is not very different from the one dancing together with a beloved.

Let's lament

We are sad because

a) We can't have what we desire
b) We are scared that we'll loose what we have

If only, if only we realize that we possess nothing, not even this body. What would it be like?

We need to grow. We need to expand our perspectives. I need to evolve.