Chartsheet - 'social failure'

Bad health. Randomness. Out of life. Failure in mating. Discontinuity
in social affairs. Gloomy nights & frustrated breaths. Total failure of balance. Death.

The fear of the blood-ladies has its stories around these simple predictions or deductions. They can't be blamed for such a reaction. A stubborn ass has nothing else to initiate.

I need time. I feel the need to be free - the way I walk, and the way I'll die. I'll grow, and I may regret. But, in the end, it's the Light which I must seek. A breath under a cave, otherwise, is not very different from the one dancing together with a beloved.

Let's lament

We are sad because

a) We can't have what we desire
b) We are scared that we'll loose what we have

If only, if only we realize that we possess nothing, not even this body. What would it be like?

We need to grow. We need to expand our perspectives. I need to evolve.

Perceptions

We will refer to Truth, i.e. something which is independent of everything and is self-certified reality, as Reality.

Point of view:

Our perceptions are the reality in which we exist. They may or may not be Reality


Supposition:

It is possible that what a person perceives (personal reality) is a part of Reality, but it is impossible for some other person to perceive it in the same way.
 

Statement:

It means that whether one's reality is the Reality cannot be completely judged/tested by others. So, one cannot be sure of what he believes actually is.

Hence, one must try to test one's world at different circumstances, and accordingly 'evolve' into the Reality.



Role of majority:

Can reality of majority (or all) be called as Reality? Again, it may, it may not.






It's a strange world with strange questions and possible answers. We just stop questioning, and start accepting others' realities as Reality. Let's question, and let's grow.



By the way, what is your reality?

Face to face with Illusion

I'd a strange feeling. Not a prison, but I couldn't move. The inability, the dependency which was unprecedented in it's vigor and perceptibility. It, surely, didn't feel right.

Allow me to walk on love
If not drinking, just showering my blood
To wash the dark stains
Of fears, confusions and unlovely world


A sudden pain strikes. It's not just a desire to hide, to run away, but a larger quest to make an attempt to leave the delicate being with minimum bruises. I've my limitation, I've my capacity. My imagination tortures my feelings and forbids me to put forward a hand which can go through any intensity of fire. O Dear! do not understand it to be the lack of desire. It's the wild game, perhaps. There's nothing which lies beyond your sight, I am standing all naked. I'm a little tired now, and need some rest. You can take all which is mine but peace of mind. I need it.


This is strange. Really. I am not lying. It's really strange. Now it's due to self-inflicted suffering, or the faith in the insensitivity of the volatile other self, or just the cold which can be quite depressing.

But, I hope...

Multiple Personality Realizations

There is a body. There is a part of consciousness.There is one more with another body. Close they are, as a result of Divine games either with faith in evolution or dark desires, as plans to be together for a larger part of life bloom.

Many selves dwell in me
And cook looks of different themes
I grow with many as such
Ah! Exclusivity's for waste
Accept the truth, it's tough I know
And not with just widened eyes, but a deeper breath

Everyone has fears, and, thus, everyone shall be given a pot to boil them off. We choose different ingredients, in the form of people, experiences and realizations, in order to make the living in cooking more flavored. Let's accept it, and allow them to enjoy their meal of life.

Monogamy....polygamy....open relationships....open marriages....what's the use of 'branding'?

I opened my eyes

Updated: 23rd Jan'09
Impossible! It's sad!


Updated: 19th Jan '09
Once again. One more time. A better promise, a better state of existence.

Keep promises with oneself -> and, thus, keep promises to others.


Updated: 1st 2009



A lot of issues to be resolved


An emotion has its place, but still inferior to many.

Updated: 16th Nov 2014

I've no idea what is it all about.  If it's about inner life - easiest to assume - I am in a much more stable state. The search is on. The character is still weak as there is still knowing-doing gap.







and the life goes on....

We and our relationships

Change is the word common to us all. We change, our perception changes and, thus, changes the network of our relationships.While shrouded in the confusions are those who fail to register changes in their soulmates, the light realized by the travelers darkens the chance of realization of the incapability of those around them. But then, this has been the case since times immemorial, and shall exist for long time to come.

Can we flow in our relationships too? Can mere waves of the ocean of the heart take the ship of love to the desired destination of realizations? 'Working out' a relationship then seems to be not only artificial, but a dangerous perception towards life similar to an attempt to an answer to a wrong question.

All we can say is 'live'. Right or wrong, there'll be a path sooner or later. Let's pray, let's dance, let's wait and, thus, let's move.


But, it's a difficult condition when you're not the one who changed. It is, indeed.


A whore of no money
Is this what I tend to become?
It's a path of love and not of business
Let's walk till we reach our home